If you open your heart and mind to God as you once had known him, where will it lead? Can you handle such a massive change? And where will you begin?
I left the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints when I was fifteen years old. After twenty years of drifting, struggling, searching and trying to define myself outside the constructs of the church, I decided to give it an honest inspection again, giving in to the feeling tugging me back to where I had started.
At first it was challenging. I wished for someone who had been through it themselves to hold my hand as I tiptoed back. Now that I’ve been through it, I want to share my journey with you. You might be wondering, “where in the he– do I begin? I have all of these habits, choices, reservations. How am I ever going to make these big changes that seem so challenging? Things like wearing garments, paying tithing, facing the issues you might have with the church, the law of chastity and the word of wisdom to name a few. Let’s talk about it!
Upon my return, if ever I felt overwhelmed by all this change, an invitation from Alma would remind me “if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you.” I had the desire and allowed it to work in me. And here I am doing it. And my life has changed for the better in every. single. aspect.
If you have that desire, if you follow Alma’s invitation and “but allow the desire to work in you. Now, if ye give place, that a seed may be planted in your heart, behold, if it be a true seed, or a good seed, if ye do not cast it out by your unbelief, that ye will resist the Spirit of the Lord, behold, it will begin to swell within your breasts; and when you feel these swelling motions, ye will begin to say within yourselves–It must needs be that this is a good seed, or that the word is good, for it beginneth to enlarge my soul”
Open your heart and your spirit will soar!